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Saturday, March 30, 2013
wtf I shouldn't have loved too hard cos they would all just disappoint you in the end. Can't believe i actually cried about it. WTF i should have known better. I don't give a fishcake about you people, i know there are others who don't take me for granted. Idgaf if you laugh behind my back anymore. Its not worth it pls. Monday, January 28, 2013
the inexplainable This week is gonna be really busy. Gonna focus on just getting through one day at a time. Sighs. And yeahhhh I don't know why I acted the way I did just now. I shouldnt have been so quick to put the person down. Idk. People have their reasons right and so what if they don't either. I myself have difficulties explaining some of my actions and likes or dislikes or whatever. Siannn. Okayy dahh need to study and be more humble. Hmmm. Wednesday, January 23, 2013
I don't get it. Maybe I'm trying too hard to be a good friend. Maybe secretly everyone is laughing at me behind my back. Saying this girl is trying too hard, she's faking to be nice. But wtf, I just want to be a nice and good person okay. I have my own opinions too, I can be mean at times but the thing is i choose to be nice. And this kind of things happen. What does my friendship mean to you. I honestly dk. So you want me to be mean now, sure, watch me. Wednesday, January 16, 2013
grades I know that grades are not the most important thing is life but right now it feels that if I don't bring my grades up, my future is going to be ruined. I used to roll my eyes whenever someone cries or say their life is over when they fail something, but right now I feel that I screwed up shit my jc1 year and yes I'm still alive but I'm struggling and worrying all the time. Is that still being called living? I try to study but it just doesn't show in my marks and idk what is wrong with me. I used to be smart okay, good grades and all, but now I'm like last in class or something. Fml. Now, I feel like crying in every single chem lesson cos everyone makes it sound so easy when its freaking not. I hate this. Monday, January 14, 2013
ignoring game I hate this ignoring game. I know I purposely try not to see you in hopea that you would say hi first but you never did. And I kept on doing that hoping that one day you would say hi. But then it just got into this game where we would ignore each other and pretend that we're strangers until finally we really became strangers. Idk if it hurts you but it cuts me and I just wished that we could be as close as we were last time. Imy. Friday, December 28, 2012
thinking Taiwan was fantasticunexpectedcoldbeautifulamazingtouchingwonderfulcrazynicereflectivetooshortshopping. Yeap, summed it up all there. :D
Anw, i have been thinking a lot lately (due to the long rides in the van in Taiwan.) Idk, i just felt that 2012 was so amazing. Sure there have been heartbreaks, disappointment, friends who became strangers, terrible grades and mental breakdowns sometimes, but i really think this year has been wonderful. I have seen myself growing up, being more mature, making decisions and having the courage to accept whatever consequences, laughing, smiling, letting loose, making new friends, having a crush (ohgawd), trying to find out who i am and it all feels so good. I had a lot of great moments in 2012 and i hope i can hold on and find strength in them for as long as possible. Hahaha, i can't resist, i feel like naming the top 10 greatest moments omg.
(in chronological order)
1. Cambodia trip
2. Orientation
3. Boarding formal dinner
4. MLDDS skit competiton
5. 17th birthday + funtasia
6. ARISTAL!!!
7. Becoming exco
8. TDC
9. HRC
10. YLTC
Yeap(: Moments like these made me realise how blessed i am.
For the coming 2013, i'm gonna make more of these moments. I know its gonna be crazy busy with syf and As. But i'm not gonna freak out, I'll try to take everything in stride. Remember all the lessons I've learnt in the past years.
And in 2013, no more waiting for things to happen, if i want them to happen i have to work for it and get them myself. I'm going to prioritise getting in NUS medicine. And that means i'm gonna do everything i can to get it, including working hard to get my grades up, buffing up my portfolio and cca and anything else.
I know that i don't have to make everyone like me, just the people that matter. I'm gonna make sure that the people that matter know that they matter to me. I'm gonna ignore whatever shit everyone else does. I'll try to stop judging and stop getting jealous so easily. Be closer to god. Stop caring what people think about me. Study harder. Do what I wanna do, no holding back. Insya allah.
Sunday, December 16, 2012
dream Oh fudge cakes, last night, I dreamt that some guy i know turned into an evil mastermind and it was up to me to make him good again. It was extremely weird but sweet and somehow, i can't get it out of my head. Why must some stupid dream screw up my routine when i was just starting it. Sighs. And i forgot how to do physics like i can't even do the homework. Rawr.
On a more happy side, my parents are back safe! :D And like i can't wait for Taiwan trip, i'm making it like geog-y to make up for not paying attention to geog these hols. Heehee~
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